Thoughts to ponder

Christmas 2008

I don’t love Christmas.

YEP

I said it!

I don’t love Christmas.

I love baby Jesus.

And the idea of CHRISTmas. But the commercial aspects of Christmas disgust me.

We have never put up more than one tree. And never before the 10th or so of the month.

To go into debt buying gifts that you feel obligated to buy seems wrong.

I love giving gifts.

But, I like doing it throughout the year. I don’t limit it to Christmas.  There is nothing like finding just the right thing for someone that you love.

Giving someone a list of things to “get” me makes me crazy!! If you can’t figure out what to get me, save your money. We obviously aren’t close enough to buy gifts for one another.

Over the coming weeks this will come up again on this blog. This is my blog and my feeling.

Dr. Google, please find your way out of my computer. You do not ease my mind you make me super nervous!

Just wanted to give a quick update on my mammogram appointment.

Since it was my first ever I am going to record all the details!

After arriving and filling out the required paperwork I sat in the waiting room full of worried looking men. I asked my husband to let me go by myself. He is a busy guy and not soothing, I spend my time worrying about making him happy when he is around and I didn’t want that stress today.

The nurse finally called my name after a 15 minute wait. She escorted me to another holding cell where I was given a cape to change into. Yes, I said a cape…..very strange. After another wait the radiology tech freed me from the holding cell.

Honestly, the mammogram was not painful. It wasn’t fun, but it was not all that bad. So, many different angles. Now I am a squished booby girl! Then I was taken back to the holding cell.

Still in the fabulous green cape.

After about 20 minutes the ultrasound tech came to escort me to the the ultrasound room. Pokes around on my left breast, finding nothing to take pictures of she consults her paperwork and the mammogram pictures and declares my left breast perfect!

YAY

Holdup!!!!!!

Don’t get too excited.

Lets take a closer look at the right breast. They found something suspicious!! WTH?

No way, it’s fine.

So I stay in the boob sagging position with the cold jelly smeared on them. She finishes up and runs to show them to the doctor. While sitting there waiting I am of course going through worst case scenarios because that is the way I roll.

Upon returning to the room she says that this “mass” looks like a benign “mass” and they want to take another picture with mammogram. Sure, my right boob hasn’t been squished enough. Whatever, this could save my life. RIGHT??

After this is finished the doctor comes in and says he wants to do these tests again in 6 months to see if there are any you to make me more paranoid I am paranoid enough on my own! Thanks for that!changes. The “mass” is relatively small.

This is the part where Dr Google is not my friend. No one makes big long posts about how it was nothing, and I am fine.

Don’t leave me messages telling me how paranoid I should be because your aunt, cousin, sister, mother, grandmother, boyfriends 2 wife's sister-in-law waited and was dead within 3 months.

I don’t need you to make me more paranoid. I am paranoid enough on my own!  Thanks for that!!

Feeling strange

My left breast that is….

My first ever mammogram is scheduled for today at 12:10. Please keep me in your thoughts.

About 2 weeks ago I found a *mass in my left breast. After being felt up by my family doctor a mammogram was scheduled. For my own peace of mind I am telling myself that it is nothing. After all, if I don’t make it into a big deal then it will not be a big deal…right??

*mass-what the doctor called this abnormality